It's hard to be one of the boys when you just want to be a girl. But it's hard being a girl when you want the boys to think you're cool.
My only friend that is female is my sister and BFF, so I'm not sure if that counts and we share the same group of friends.
It's hard to like a boy who belongs to your group of friends. I am never one to let the person know I like them, but I can't help it if my jealousy shines when he speaks about his girlfriend (oops...).
My sister asked to choose between being his friend or not being his friend.
I had to choose between 2. But I asked, 'why can't we be friends with benefits?'.
I know, I've already stated he has a girlfriend. But our friendship is so close. I can be myself around him, make dirty jokes, not wear any makeup, etc.
I am also aware that most FWB relationships don't go over well, because the female often gets attatched. -I've never watched the movie Friends with Benefits, but I'm sure it Hollywood-ized.-
This FWB fling-thing would promote promiscuity, like the underwear we sell at my workplace that read HOTTER THAN YOUR GIRLFRIEND (which I have been tempted to buy).
Last weekend, I confessed to my sister that I am in l o v e with this boy.
Scratch that...maybe I'm not in love with him, maybe I just love him. I know there's a difference, but I can't very well define them right now.
Here I am, questioning my feelings for him once again.
But there is another boy I like who is also my friend.
He is very outgoing and kind.
I think we'd fit well together.
Although, he didn't take my flirty jokes as jokes (amongst friends). What a fail that was!
I digress...
But unlike most of my friends he is both taller and older than me ++++++++
Did I mention I had a crush on him in high school? Uhh, yeah.
Well, I'm not sure if I'm better off taking my chances with guy #1 or guy #2.
This weekend, though, I guess I will take it with the latter.
We're supposed to go out tonight and celebrate my birthday (early) with a group of friends (no awkwardness, yay!). Guy #1 is invited, but said he wanted to invite his girlfriend :(
Things will either go my way or not my way tonight.
*fingers crossed*
